Nightmares (Dreams, Part 2)
Part 2 of dream analysis…nightmares. For someone who pretty much stays away from scary movies, I sure have a lot of nightmares. The most recent one involved me walking into a 7-story Starbucks with underground floors (the wave of the future, I’m sure) with Jeremy, only I wanted to be by myself, so I went into the elevator and rode it to the bottom floor. Instead of a coffee shop, it was the set-up for a haunted house. The place was completely deserted, but it made me really uncomfortable.
Instead of getting back on the elevator, I chose to try and find a way out of the haunted house. I ran and ran…past spooky dark places and over broken floors with nothing but gaping darkness underneath. The faster I ran the more frantic I felt, and the more I fell down. I started to feel like I wasn’t alone, but it wasn’t people I sensed. It was creatures. There was nowhere to hide and now I was lost and exposed. I remember wondering distantly in the dream if anyone would come look for me, and if they would even know where to find me in the first place. I guess that’s what I get for wanting to be alone! I found a small staircase in the middle of a wide expanse of darkness, and I curled up on it. There was a glowing Exit sign above me, but no door.
All I can make of this is that it’s maybe a reflection of feeling lost and scared in life, worrying that if I don’t run fast enough I’ll fall through the cracks and disappear. Maybe wondering if I’ve wandered so far from “me” that nobody even knows where to look anymore to find me. And the door-less exit? Could be false alarms at progress or things seeming like they’ll get better, only to end up the same.
September 30th, 2008 at 2:50 am
Thanks for sharing. Am always amazed at how vivid and how much of your dreams that you remember, especially since I haven’t remembered a dream in such detail in months, if not years.